AWE

There is no way in this life that I can convey what is going on to you.
Never properly.

To describe the existence you are living in right now would require a written piece of AWE. And Im simply not up to it: )

Ive looked at this universe for years, and nowadays I can fill my mind with its utter AWE. But I do not know quite how to explain that to someone else.

We as a species are designed not to think this way, we aren't meant to be content. If we were content we would sit down and stagnate. And that is not happening. Not whilst we have the pen.

The key to seeing the universe is to see it in all its forms at once, or as many as you can manage.
For instance, Time.
you can see it as different to what is on the clock. And just like you can see your ancestry back in time to your grandparents
so can you trace all the events and communications and thoughts that lead back from you now to what made your grandparents get together
back to them at your age
back to their births

and ever onwards back in time
every thing that changed everything
and how the Humans were the only ones with half a sense of control, and use of control. Because we can think.
and that chain reaction goes from you into the future as well as back to the past.
You have a lot of control over your fate, yet you will always make the same decisions for the same future, depending on which one you choose
see >HERE<

and that chain reaction is just one part of what I see
theres also science, the most fascinating subject there is
if you just think about the chemical composition of the walls of your room, of the curtains, the lightbulbs, the computer, and all that went into refining them from stardust

you think of the light coming into the room and bouncing about, being soaked up in your eyeballs and bringing out the colour

the radio waves in the piece of air right in front of you
theres sound, pictures and data upon data flying through it

information we have spent hundreds of thousands of years to build from absoultely nothing. That is not easy, how many inventions have you made? It is the same thought process.

And then you have the fact we are inside it all.
Seemingly just thrown in, the universe saying 'here, exist' and still not given an explantation and at an age where we are still working on finding the truth and worrying about our health.

Just being conscious is a fucking miracle. I dont know why people believe in easier ones, all down to some bloke called Jesus.
We do not need more that what we have.
What we do need is a life for us here.

And we cannot do that without some global effort to lighten up on each other.
Which will be hard to accomplish.

People are lost, that's what makes my life so lonely. Like with all the events leading up to your birth, and then your childhood,
So people are like a bouncing pinball. One little thing causes us to change our minds on something, and hence we change our actions. Normally immediately without even thinking about it. Hence lost and living in fate. There's your “Herd”.
Being aware of it is important.

But still it is very hard to make correct judgements, especially when warped by other people who have made bad judgements affecting your mental state at the present.

And if we knew the truth, then we would know what to do always. Because we would know which existence we are living in, and therefore, what to do in it.
And knowing the Truth about ourselves and all our emotions and interactions as a species is vital as well, because we are a 'different kettle of fish' than we pretend to be.
It's all lies

I guess that is why people spend time finding themselves, I have never found a value in it before.

Existence is AWE
yet still I feel trapped in it
I dont agree with it
and I doubt Id agree with a spirit world if I ever found myself in one
it's hard to think it is worth it.

like if I said 'God we are such a beautiful species.'
would you agree with the wonder of US?

humans are very beautiful and very amazing
yet theyre also a shit pot
as long as you think in the higher mind or delude yourself then you can see us as beautiful and amazing and worthwhile
but then when you get to know us, youre like shyeah right

It's exactly the same with Existence
which meaning do you choose?
I guess the simple answer is the one that is True
the AWE

and possibilities we have now we have the net to help us sort the real world out

and make it ALL worthwhile

there is Hope
maybe not for you but maybe for your immortal soul

I hate existing with a passion, yet my dreams arn't as empty, and never will be: )

Nick.Eliot[at]Cannotfindserver.net

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