FUCK ME FOR BEING A BLEEDING HEART LIBERAL

 

 

I was just having a rant in the shower, and I want to put it into words as it explains a lot about me and my outlook

not easy to recreate a rant in any enjoyable form but I will try, just let me finish my cigarette

I have recently moved into a new house, escaping from an insane bob marley loving housemate in my old house
and my new housemate is okay, but has been snapping at me when he is angry and today ordered me not to smoke again in the living room as I would get evicted

whereas the truth is I only do not smoke in there often out of the goodness of my own heart

and this man is ten years older than me, at 24
and it lead me to thinking, how I havent met anyone superior to me as yet on this planet

sure Ive met people more intelligent than me
and had a lot of conversations with those 20/30 years older than me

but none has proper decency!

I prefer to deal with people in a calm and nice manner
as that is how I like to live with myself, the alternative, being a dark powerful being indeed

plus I have been beaten down horribly by life over the past 10 years and do not have much fight left. (Im not broken just yet, but I am greatly weakened)

and the order from my housemate, thinking me a pussy did not go down well
I keep going to bed pissed off at him
and I should, I SHOULD bite back and tell him the true ruling of things

but that is an animal impulse
we are all primates
our conscious brain is built upon the primate mind deeper inside us
and that mind is depraved, violent, and wants to be the boss or the slave of all around it

and I think myself above it
I deal with all matters with manners and common sense

and this is a Hard way to live!
I do not feel satisfied after avoiding an argument with someone who has not surmounted their primitive nature
the inner mind wants to see the offender lying bloody in front of me
and so do the girls
you do not get girls from being the better man, they want an 'outlaw biker' who is plainly the master of those around him.
all else is a lie, for they have not surpassed primitiveness either

and neither have just about everybody I have met
the 40/50 year olds are not open about their hearts and minds, they dont speak truthfully in that respect
and my contemporaries are childish and mean, despite their massive brainpower
it is part of surpassing yourself on this miserable lonely little road to realise what you need to be for the greater good!
you need to be a nice guy, you need to be mature, you need to be better than the sum of your parts
what you NEED to be IS SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS
you need to realise what the world is
you need to be a Seeer

all I see around me is primitive,
maybe forgivable in someone without much brainpower
it took me a great deal of thought to see things as I do now and I dont expect someone without the same dirty genes could have

the point of all this is
the people in power need to understand,
they need to do whats for the greater good
people like hitler never understood the world, perhaps influenced
he lived on his primitive mind
and did what it took to satisfy it
and saw his enemies defeated before him

he didnt have the courage to stand up to his basic self
or the will to feel as shitty as it makes you to do so
to not think the first thought and act on it
but to challenge it and take the little limp one instead, and that way learn what the world really is

and it worries me, the leaders of the countries today.
They, I doubt realise what the world is
they have not conquered their primitive instincts
and they have gone to war
instead of talking to the people

not chosen the limp, but correct option

AND I SEE IT ALL THE TIME!!!

no suicide bomber has so much as dared challenge their beliefs
no president has bowed down from power for the good of the people
and no housemate has taken the path of manners, not the path of confrontation (except when they are too primordially cowardly to not do so)

I need another cigarette

I am better than most everyone I meet
for I see the world for what it is
I see Humans for what they are, children
and they remain children for as long as they dont understand, or try to understand

I once had a terrible thought
If I could not circumvent my Human nature to not need a woman,
then humanity could never stop a war for the nature of most children is violence

but now I think that war is much more complicated than that
it is harder to start a war than to bully someone smaller than yourself
there's more logistics involved
it is only Human nature if you look at the whole thing in an overview
but then at the same time, these people starting these wars are but children
if they have not grown up and fully matured and taken the limp option

then they are just acting out fate
just running the line of least resistance in their minds
and acting how they would have always acted given the same situation
if you get me

and these people SHOULD NOT BE THE ONES IN POWER
voted in by the population of children
the one in power must be a great man or woman of course
but they must also be able to cheat fate and do so for the greater good of Humanity
for we are probably heading for a fall
the future is whats most important, whilst enjoying today
the leaders must be able to cheat fate in the way of speaking rationally
not hiding behind well scripted bullshit
yet they must be wise enough to not make huge mistakes as people like Mao have done in trying to change things with rationality (such as getting the population to collect all the spare steel, (I think it was) lying around, smelt it And the country ends up with massive stores of unsalable low quality steel)

 

if even our leaders cannot accomplish this, the supposed great all powerful men (ooh Im so scared of the lil baby dimwit) then what hope is there for us?
we are either at the dawn of enlightenment of Humanity, the dawn of a glorious new age
OR we are at the dawn of the degradation of Humanity, lost in unchallenged primitive thought, hell bent on the destruction of the planet!

 

 

(C)opyright Nick.Eliot[at]cannotfindserver.net 24/07/2005

[UPDATE] I really didnt actually mean that part about my housemate, and am glad I live with him; hard to have a rant without gunning someone down I suppose

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