Interesting facts about people and life
I've just been having a passionate talk with my mother about life and about people
we were watching a film called 'The Gift' on mute where we easily saw the actions and what was going to happenA man beats his gf and his kids
and she lets him back in the house because she loves him.
I knew she'd let him back in, to "BE THE MAN" and dominate her and her poor kids because she's vulnerable, she doesn't think she'll get anyone better because she has low self esteem, and he keeps it that way on purpose.
Women often go for this type of man, and they often let him back in, again and again and again and again until someone else stops it
it turns out, thanks to my mother's counselling skills, that the aggressive dominant man has an equally low self esteem, he's dominant and violent because he thinks if he lets his guard down and becomes open truly then noone will love him like they do when he is the aggressor
so you end up with two fucking morons letting each other fuck them over.
And the man hates himself for what he does, and the woman hates herself for being so weak that she lets him
though she loves the submissive position and he loves his dominance at the same time.
Human Nature.
It lead me to tell my mother the most telling fact about me,
that I could do all this if I wanted to
I know so much about the weaknesses of human psychology
if I wanted to I could dominate my world
but I cant be arsed.
I can rape minds with my mind, but I am a philosopher, a real philosopher not some second rate Oxford don who's read a load of shit from the past and has an active god spot
I'm sweet and gentle, and women hate it.
And you know what?
I don't give a shit.
I'm not going to cow tow to some petty human nature. I am better than that. I'm not like the guy who acts and regrets, I cant be fucked with any of it and I'm proud
both my mother and I agree that the most essential part of being alive and being human is being able to cope on your own, completely on your own
then you do not get fucked over by anybody.
We were also watching 'Dragon's Den', a program where inventors and entrepreneurs present their business ideas to a group of millionaires in the hopes of investment
and my mother was disgusted
and is disgusted about how the whole of society is devoted solely towards gaining money.
The reason for that is simple, and explains the requirement of people like me in the world.
It is secularisation.
People do not believe in god any more,
why would god let a priest rape a bunch of choirboys every day? When the alternative belief of science makes so much more sense.
and with the divinity taken from life and only cold hard science with it's, 'Well I don't really know but I'm sure it makes sense.' science,
there is nothing left for people to care about but money.
These people who present their ideas on Dragons Den see the millionaires with envious eyes and they hunger
a hunger so deep in the pit of their hearts that drives them onwards and onwards towards a fruitless goal
they wont find happiness
they wont find wisdom
they will find hard work, respect and luxury
I couldn't be fucked about respect.I should get it, and all I get is love, for the way I act towards people
but respect is what you need for a human females' pitiful psychology
mum says its because I don't think I deserve it. And she could be right about that,
As always there is more to learn about myself, and more to change.
The crux of the matter being, that as a species, we should not lust after gods happy death or money
fuck them,
we should lust after sorting ourselves out as a species
we should lust after self love and logic and what it means to think past our primitive and into the higher mind and replenish our souls.
Self esteem is good, whether its worth the effort and the losses is another matter indeed.
Why cant everyone just lighten up?
Nick.Eliot[at]Cannotfindserver.net