Schizophrenia - Forced Medication

I saw a documentary tonight on schizophrenia
it was pretty basic, as always the outsiders view which misses the essence of the illness

I'm wound up by the postman stealing my digital camera so I'm going to purge the stress with words

I'm a schizophrenic
its been an amazing and intensely difficult life for me
now I'm on pills and am a testemant to what they can do these days

a pill
a simple substance
that turns the insane into sane

a hundred years ago I would have been caged in the madhouse for the rest of my natural life

and performed my craziness for visitors who paid to see

I pity the poor souls who have lived before me with the same genes,
to live out your life completely out of your mind is horrific

, and to be completely in the control of others
nasty people
caged for something you didn't do and that you do not understand
your brain a universe of thousands of delusions
delusions of what is real, of what is happening to you, of who you are
all false

the pills make me sane, and able to converse with you now, before it would have been garbled nonsense
and I get few side effects too
just few enough to make the pills worth it

but I am lucky
lol after my life that sounds ridiculous

 

Even though I'm sane now, and a practiced expert Master of my Mind, I still have to live with the mentally ill

I'm near destroyed by all I've been through and fortunate enough to live in a country where I get money and shelter to recover in, if I can

I used to live in a shithole of a group house, a house for people with mental illness
the housemates were good people and are now my friends

anyway the documentary on sz mentioned the talk about the forced treatment of schizophrenics
as they are hashing out the new Mental Health act in the British parliament these days
and they want to make it mandatory for people to take medication

and I'm wondering if this is wrong or right
you'd expect me to be dead against this flouting of my human rights

you should rather expect me to be used to the flouting of my human rights by now, everyday imposed by the system

the point is, I've lived with mentally ill people
its scary
90% of schizophrenics can be completely out of their mind, but they would never harm you.
we schizos are of a similar ilk
you are far more likely to be injured by an average person

what's scary about someone whos ill is their unpredictability,
they're not in their right mind so you cannot guess what they will do
or what mess they are thinking
and they play music at 4 in the morning
regularly!
would you like to go tell some raving lunatic to "turn it down" at 4 in the morning?

I sure as fuck didn't like doing it

the young bob marley fan in question didn't take pills
he refused as his hippy uncle told him they were poison
(and of course the uncle wouldn't dream of letting him live with him)

I moved out.
and as for the ill guy, he got a little violent in the end and the house was raided by police when he wrote a crazed letter threatening to knife everyone who lived there
the police managed to find a 1/4 ounce of cannabis in his room and so had an excuse to lock him up and get him treatment

(He wasn't at all a violent person, very timid in fact.  He saw all the breadknives we had and thought we were some butchers who wanted to attack him.  That's simply how it is.)

he's locked up now, not officially, but if he tries to escape they will section him under the current mental health act so he is officially caged and lawfully will be pinned down and forcibly injected with medication

I'm glad he's in hospital
he needs help
he certainly wasn't enjoying life as it was
although at the moment he is in the system's version of guantanamo bay and is probably stressed out to the eyeballs

so on that basis I overall approve of the new mental health act in the making
giving the power to the system to help people who don't know they need help (and are making their housemates lives a nightmare)

but then again, if you get into the knitty gritty of the idea there are huge problems
if you're going to give psychiatric doctors and nurses the entire power over peoples brains for the rest of that persons natural life
the first thing you need to do is work over the system

its fucked up at the moment
it really is
in hospital you get no care
you are treated completely without respect or love
you're just shut in by people who enjoy jangling their keys and having their power over you

if you don't have what is called 'insight' you don't even know you are ill

you do not know why they have locked you up or what is going on
what you think is going on can range from full on attack by the forces of evil (which is what it feels like to be under a section in today's hospitals) to being put in a staging area before you go to heaven

the weirdo doctors only see you for say 15 minutes a week if you're lucky
so you're caged in with the nurses, away from your loved ones, treated with constant disrespect as they believe they are better than you, because you are ill and they are well and pure

I'm not describing the hell of it all very well, suffice to say its a living nightmare.

Then if you get well (which may not happen) you are released
and in this country you are released into the "care" of the psychiatric nurses
you've just been through a living nightmare and now you are forced to have some cunt come visit you whenever they want to
checking you are still sane whilst pretending to try and sort your destroyed life out
someone you do not want coming to your house, as they are not your friend and do not try to be
and you have to lie to them every time they come
because they dangle the keys to your very freedom from their belt

if they were to give these people even more power, the power to drag you into captivity when ever they cared to and force drugs into you.
then they should all be fired or re-trained into decent people

people who care for you like a district nurse does for the bodily sick
people who think you deserve the respect they would give any ordinary human
if the new mental health act comes in, then no one with a mental illness will be truly free ever again

that's at bare minimum 2% of the population, a large number
and when they bring in the law for schizophrenics and manic depressives then they will soon after bring it in for the depressed

it will be against the law to be suicidal
punishable by lifelong forced injections of anti-depressants

you've lost your job, your family all died in a house fire, people are fucking you over every day, bullies, the government declared war on your ancestral land and bans you from having a smoke in your bar, the taxman is at the door to pay for it, you are penniless and in debt
you want to die, a great many people want to die
you're not free to wallow, you've told someone, so now you lose your rights, your sense of freedom
until you die of natural causes

its something people need to take into account before putting this bill through
its all fine and well to point the finger at schizophrenics because some tabloid newspaper sensationalized a story about someone with schizophrenia's second personality knifing someone on the street
they are lesser people obviously and do not deserve rights
but it could happen to absolutely anyone, including you

the loss of your pride to the control of others
the loss of your independence for life
any sense of freedom gone
and the stress of those in power poking around in your life and constantly monitoring you

you'll have to accept injections into your ass every other week
if you don't want to be taken from your computer and tv and friends and locked up in fluorescent light hell
and these injections take away your virility
you cant get an erection
or if youre a woman you cannot have an orgasm anymore
and they make you put on weight
you don't eat much but you become a fatty and have to carry extra stones around with you all the time
you lose the ability to feel emotion, and fall in love

its a hell of a cost just to stop the odd person being knifed
and incidentally schizophrenics do not have multiple personalities.
it is a common misconception caused by tabloid newspapers
people who have Multiple Personality Disorder lead much worse lives than us, and that is quite a feat so I do not mind taking their flak

the bill, if it does come in, should not come in now
it should come in when the pills work properly, and do not take away so much from your life,
when they can be relied upon.
And it should come when the doctors and nurses and the people who (with a little training) get the keys to your freedom through absolutely no fault of your own are good caring people

I mean what would it entail?
you want to feel lust again so you stop taking your pills and stop talking to the cunts
you get your brainpower back but a little too much
Are they going to smash in your door then pin you down and inject you?
or drag you off in a police wagon to be locked up until you submit to them for life?

what if all schizophrenics and depressed people and people with bipolar refused to take their meds?
the wards are full up now, over spilling into goal
so they would have to bash in everybody's doors one by one forever
would the government make a law forcing you to give up a set of keys to some stranger you do not like?

they would have to
I feel trapped now
with people monitoring my sanity
and I used to be a great man
I cannot feel great now
I cannot do what I want
if I shouted at the nurse who visits it would go straight on my permanent record 'verbally aggressive' and my threat assessment would go up
simply because I was demanding my respect
and they could use that if they wanted to incarcerate me again
to give them an excuse

and would

I am not caged anymore
but I am by no means a free man
I feel it all the time and am used to it
and they want to make that feeling worse
I cannot rebel
they hold the keys

and the bill should not affect minors
parents should have the right to decide whether to dose their child or not
the kid would lose their sex drive, lose what is fundamental to feel when you're a teenage boy
lose life

then there's the situation of misdiagnosis
the doctors as I said, spend very little time diagnosing you
and they are not wise people by any stretch of the imagination
they're a mixed bag of freaks and that is truth

in the future you will not be able to think what you want to think in case you're diagnosed as "delusional"
if your thoughts are not those endorsed by public opinion, you risk being labeled a schizophrenic;
everyone knows someone who's a bit cuckoo
and if the act passes then they will have to suffer the violations and medications that We have to endure
the thought police will exist
no more new age thinking this crystal on a bit of wood is a magic wand
drugs for life for you my friend
and not even an apology, you are now deemed, by law, as a lesser person

schizophrenia, bi polar (manic depression), clinical depression and schizo affective disorder are problems with the brain
that is why they can be treated with pills
its a medical illness, otherwise pills would not work and you would need therapy

but therapy costs money, the government doesn't shell out for it, so you get dosed for life
you think you go into hospital, the doctor gives you a brain scan, deems you have a medical fault within your brain and gives you the corrective pill and dose for your brain chemistry and you are cured

dream the fuck on, that's cloud cuckoo land you fucking defective nutter

the new mental health act is nasty
I hope I have conveyed what it can entail for your critical fault of being born
or feeling down

but at the same time that very ill housemate needed help
it was no life
and he did not understand what was going on

people should not have to live with the mentally ill
people including the formerly mentally ill who live with them because they can't afford not to

there should be a bill
but that bill should not make it illegal to be as nature intended you to be (my genes go back to the indo europeans, and so are in most all breeds of human all over the planet)

WHAT THE NEW MENTAL HEALTH ACT SHOULD ENTAIL:
is a method of judging the quality of life of the sufferers, taking into account the quality of life of those living with them
and if they are deemed to be having a horrible life or causing others to then they should be forcibly treated

and there should also be an overhauling of the system to make it one of respect to the ill and those under the act. so the forcibly treated can feel cared for and free: )
perhaps by enticing the cured into the profession

 

 

 

 

 

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